I am not the explainer
for the people who ask what can I do, I know I am not a racist, this is the last thing I'll say: dig deep into the dark places of yourself (Jane Elliott and Brene Brown will help you) because what you do and say now is not necessarily what you did and said when you were 8 or 12 or 19, it might be guilt and shame you are concealing from yourself; this is very, very difficult work but if you believe in a completely anti-racist world this is the work that needs to be done to change society; you have also been gaslighted